Christmas Is Almost Here

I am so glad that I got all the presents that my son could even dream of and it is all thanks to kaplan for sending my grant money just in time.  I almost cried when I saw that check.  I am so happy right now, but I will be even more happy when I get to see my son's face on Christmas morning.  I am taking him to see Santa tomorrow, Friday I am taking him to the movies to see Yogi, and Saturday he is going to eat breakfast with Santa.  He is going to be so excited to see Santa.  I can't wait and I finally have the money to do everything I want to do with him.  Have a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year everyone!

Last day of the semester

It is the final day of the semester and I know it's a little late to submit but I had to study for my finals test in my diseases of the human body class.  I got an 85% which is good for me, for some reason I have a hard time remembering what I read.  I am so thankful for the break, it is well needed.  I have really tried to do my best and that is all anyone can do.  I am going to sleep, a lot!  It has been a lot of late nights and a lot of staying up till the next day.  It has been an incredible experience and a lot of learning.  I am so glad that I have gotten the experience of writing a blog too.  It has been great.  I hope everyone had a happy Thanksgiving and an even better Christmas/New Year.  I can't wait for 2011.  I had a great time talking with ya'll.  Talk to you soon.

Classes are almost over

Well, things are coming to a close.  I have my final paper due by Tuesday and one more blog after this.  I can't believe things went so fast.  It felt like yesterday that I started school and it has been a year this month that I started and before I know it, it will be June 2011 and I'll be graduating.  What an incredible journey it's been so far and I still have so much to learn.  It has been so much fun learning from everyone and knowing that I'm not the only one who feels like I do.  I have enjoyed this so much and I thank everyone who has followed me and left comments, sorry if I didn't get back to some of you or comment on the posts you put on your own blogs but after my last mandatory post it will not be the last you all hear from me, and I'll check in on everyone every once in a while.  Can't wait for Thanksgiving, it gonna be great.  I can't believe that I got a whole Thanksgiving dinner for $26, I was really thankful for that, especially after I found out that I paid my parents electric bill instead of my own and had to spend our dinner money on the bills.  It has been so crazy and am really looking forward to the break.  I hope all goes well for everyone.

Life is wierd

Things have been so hectic for me lately, from not knowing if we're going to have the money for Thanksgiving dinner to the bill I got today from the electric company saying they never got my payment from the beginning of the month.  I am so sick and tired of the electric company around here and I don't have any other options it is the only place where you can get your electric through.  It's not like the cable company, where they have an office location that you could pay through, no, instead they want to leave it up to places that they call authorized payment centers.  In my whole life of paying bills, I have never had so much trouble as I have with this place.  I don't even know how I'm going to get the money to re-pay the bill if I can't get a duplicate receipt from the place that I payed the bill at.  I don't even know if I can give my 2 yr old son a proper turkey dinner.  I am about ready to pull my hair out.  Things have never been this hard for me.  It almost seems like every time I try to do better for myself someone is there to make it seem like I can't and won't succeed.  I can only take things one day at a time but I am just hoping everything will pull through.

Its so crazy how things can turn out

I had my follow-up appointment for my surgery today and found out that my gallbladder was precancerous.  I am so happy they got it out before cancer could spread.  It really made me so scared to find out that it could have been a lot worse than just some gallstones.  It was actually just one big gallstone about one inch in diameter.  I don't think I could handle having cancer, not with such a young son and a whole family to take care of.  It really would have torn me apart.  But it did not spread and I am healthy again, well almost.  Another thing I wanted to mention is what happened to cartoons?  My fiance made me realize this when he was listening to "The Best Cartoon Intros From The 90's".  It made me realize how great cartoons were when I was a kid.  I have decided to let my son watch some of the old cartoons that I grew up on like Heathcliff and Bonkers.  I miss the old cartoons, ahh good times, ha ha ha!

Happy Halloween

Took my son out for trick-or-treating at a community thing with haunted hay rides, bounce house, haunted houses, costume contest, and of course trick-or-treating.  He had so much fun and everyone was saying hi to him because he wad Spongebob.  Then we went to were my niece was and he got lots of candy there.  I'm just glad he had fun, but I don't think it was such a good idea to walk around so much because I am completely sore all over.  I am so tired I almost feel asleep at the wheel coming home because I didn't have a lot of sleep last night because my son wanted to get up at 5am thinking he was going trick-or-treating.  I am just so happy that he had so much fun.  He had been counting the days till Halloween on the calender and was so excited when it was finally here.  I hope everyone else had a fun and safe Halloween for those that participate.  

What is going on!

Why is it that when one thing goes wrong it seems that everything else that can go wrong, does.  I get out of surgery, then get a bill that says final notice, my fiance has not been to work in three days, and he works on commission and we didn't have enough money to pay for that, then my car breaks down and could not get it back for another three days, so that is almost a week my fiance has been out of work and to top it all off, I have pain medication that makes me feel so tired that I can't even keep my eyes open so that I can do my school work or pay attention in class.  I am so thankful for my sister and her husband, who raised me for a little while in my teens, because they gave me the rest of the money I needed for my bill and my parents for helping with groceries, since my fiance couldn't work.  To top off the good stuff that is happening, my fiance is getting more bonuses at work, even though it means longer hours, we don't mind.  An extra twenty dollars a day could really help us out.

Post Surgery

It is finally over and I couldn't be in more pain.  Well, I probably could, but I hope not to be.  Every thing went fine and I only had to have three small incisions.  My fiance told me that I was breathing funny when I came out of surgery but it went back to normal after I had woken up and went back to sleep.  It hurts to cough and blow my nose but I will be so glad to not have any more pain.  And my dad is back in town so I won't have to do any driving for at least a week.  That will give me plenty of time to recover.  I am also hoping to have enough food for about a week so that I do not have to go to the grocery store.  I feel kind of nauseous when I eat any ways but I have my family to worry about.  My fiance has to miss two days of work because I am the only one that drives and I can barely get out of bed, let alone drive.  I just hope everyone will be fine while I'm out of commission.  I just found out, also, that two of my good friends have to get the same thing done.  I really hope the best for them, they are not fortunate enough to have insurance and I hope that they can receive the treatment they need.  Well, I think its time for me to get some more sleep.       

Trying to make everyone else happy

As I have mentioned before I am taking care of my mother and my parents apartments but what I probably didn't mention was that my dad is always out of town instead of taking care of his own responsibilities and leaving them for me.  I am trying so hard to be the responsible one in my family but it is getting harder and harder to keep up with school, my mom, my own family, and my dad's mess.  I have so much on my plate right now and am having my surgery on the 18th to top it all off.  I feel like I'm trapped in a corner with no where to go, stuck in my parents apartments with no money to move and get away from their stress.  Sometimes I feel like they are trying to keep me here because I am the 4th of 5 children and the only one who does anything to help them.  All their son's have done is steal from them and I am the only one who has been here for them through it all, telling them what choices they have, what they can do to fix their situation, and what they have to do to make it stop.  Now that I have been there for them for this long I feel guilty wanting to leave but I also feel I have no choice.  I'm not sure what to do anymore.  They are very elderly and won't be around much longer and I believe I should just stick with them till the end but I still feel like I am being used and I just need to leave.  They do not support my decision to go to school and my dad just wants me to marry rich and sit on my butt for the rest of my life but I am happy not having a lot, too much money just complicates things, I have been there and done that.  I couldn't be happier with my fiance and my son and I love that our lives are not complicated together, just with my family.  It is really putting a strain on me and my fiance and he hates being around them sometimes because of the way they treat me.  I am so thankful I have somewhere to vent out all these different thoughts because I would blow up on my family and I do not want to do that, they just do not deserve it.       

Scared of surgery

Tuesday, Sept. 28th I went to see the surgeon about getting my gallbladder taken out and to hear all the possible complications that could happen is really making me nervous.  I know that this is a routine surgery and that a lot of people get this done all the time, as a matter of fact the surgeon told me it is hundreds of thousands each year, but for my asthma and sleep apnea, which I didn't even know snoring was a form of sleep apnea, to be a factor for even further complications really has me scared to my core.  This is going to be the first time I am being put to sleep for surgery.  I have only had one surgery done before and that was a c-section and that was planned because during my pregnancy I developed gestational diabetes and my OB thought that the baby was going to be about 10 lbs., which he wasn't he came out 8 lbs 12oz, and countless dental work done because when I was about 12 yrs old I broke my two front teeth which were already my adult teeth and have had many complications since.  But even thought I have already gone through so much I just can't shake this bad feeling.  I haven't had an asthma flair ups in 8 yrs and I am so worried that it will decide to act up either while I'm in surgery or right after.  My fiance calls me a worry wort and maybe I am but can you blame me, this is my first surgery with me being asleep.  I have been gassed before for dental work and the dream I had was so weird, but is that the same?  I have tried to do research using the words complications, asthma, and gallbladder surgery, and several different variations, but I still cannot find anything. I can only hope for the best and try to take my mind off of that bad feeling.  Some times I hate woman intuition, ha ha ha.        

About me

Hi all,

My name is Emily and I live in Florida, about 45 minutes from Orlando.  I am 28 yrs old, am engaged, and have a 2 yr old son.  I am a student at Kaplan University, I also take care of my mom by taking her to the store and doctors appointments and make sure she takes her medications, help guide my 14 yr old niece and 16 yr old nephew, who my parents are raising.  Along with this, I am managing my fathers 8 apartments and doing maintenance on them.  It is very hard to keep up with all of this and get through school and still try to have a social life.  With this blog, which is for a class and my first time ever doing this, I am going to be doing a little bit of everything from venting to class topics.  So bare with me.  :)