Life is wierd

Things have been so hectic for me lately, from not knowing if we're going to have the money for Thanksgiving dinner to the bill I got today from the electric company saying they never got my payment from the beginning of the month.  I am so sick and tired of the electric company around here and I don't have any other options it is the only place where you can get your electric through.  It's not like the cable company, where they have an office location that you could pay through, no, instead they want to leave it up to places that they call authorized payment centers.  In my whole life of paying bills, I have never had so much trouble as I have with this place.  I don't even know how I'm going to get the money to re-pay the bill if I can't get a duplicate receipt from the place that I payed the bill at.  I don't even know if I can give my 2 yr old son a proper turkey dinner.  I am about ready to pull my hair out.  Things have never been this hard for me.  It almost seems like every time I try to do better for myself someone is there to make it seem like I can't and won't succeed.  I can only take things one day at a time but I am just hoping everything will pull through.